Not Alone

Tonight I finally realized I wasn't the only one with this thought, tonight in my favorite local Mommies group a Mom mentioned wanting to be in the L&D again.  Weird right?  But it is something I think about ALL the time.  Probably once a week I yearn for L&D.  Food, well wishes, knowing your other kiddos are well taken care of, no cleaning, in control of the remote, away from reality, no cooking and most of all cuddles with one baby and giving him all my attention.  Is it weird I pass our local hospital and want to be pregnant and think "vacation" for four days?  I guess I am not alone if my fellow Mommies are thinking this too.  Can you tell I really need a vacation?

Mail that Makes Your Heart Skip a Beat

I knew this day would come and I kept telling myself that after Hudson we would no longer keep our five frozen babies.  But WHY is it so hard?

Why did I suddenly in vision myself pregnant with a sweet baby girl?  How can one bill make your heart skip a beat?

This is by far going to be one of the hardest decisions in my life, we worked SO hard for those embryos.  They are MINE they would probably hold our longed for baby girl.  But yet financially and to keep my sanity we will most likely not be storing our embryos.

Never did I imagine saying that out loud could make me fall to the floor in tears.  The nurse is supposed to call me back in the next hour to tell me how to proceed.  So sad, so very sad today.

My Life In Numbers

4 - The amount of teeth Hudson has
5 - The amount of owies Aaden has right now
72 - The amount of times Noah says Mommy in a day
14 - The amount of days until my Birthday
30 - The age I will be on my Birthday
11 - The amount of days until we get the keys to our new house
23 - The amount of days until we begin moving
0 - The amount of sanity I have left
16 - The amount of times I have cried this week
72 - The amount of money my new blog has made
27 - The amount of weight I have lost
3 - The amount of pounds I need to lose to reach my 30x30 goal

Now onto what really matters... CUTENESS and introducing... my new niece Lucy and my Dad's puppy Annie!



My Boys

Time is moving SO fast and my kids never cease to amaze me or make me smile.  Aaden's vocabulary is completely INSANE.  He must know at least 1000 words and can carry on a complete conversation.

Aaden's biggest thing lately is "why?" Everything is WHY?  I try my best to answer it, but yet usually end up busting up because he asks it so many times and I run out of answers.

What is that?
An elevator
Why?
To get upstairs
Why?
Because the office is upstairs
Why?
Because they built it that way
Why?
To save money and have more than one floor
Why?
Just because

My favorite line lately has been "I love you Mommy Parker Snook!"  Parker is HIS middle name so it's everyones middle name.

My Husband gets these safety bonus scratch off cards with points on them we have seriously been saving them since before the twins were conceived well we finally cashed them in for a Power Wheels motorcycle.  Aaden is a PRO loves the thing to pieces.  Well now when ANYONE comes to the door he grabs them by the hand and says come see my motorcycle.



I could go on and on about him he lights my world and keeps me busy he is NOT one to sit down and watch a movie and very rarely sleeps in passed 7 on the dot.  He is an amazing eater and tries all kinds of stuff.  He is an amazing big Brother and calls his baby "Hudsey" and tickles him and makes him laugh and tries to feed him and just genuinely loves the heck out of his baby.  As for Noah they have a love hate relationship.  He likes to irritate Noah and discipline Noah, but then you will wind them laughing and playing together at other times.

Noah oh Noah my heart melter.  He is for sure a Mama's boy.  Lately his big thing is "ok Mommy!"  Everything is OK!  He must say OK about 200 times a day.  He is one to sit and play nicely and watch movies and is so much calmer than Aaden, but don't underestimate him because he has a screamer on him.  My favorite thing about Noah is his smile and he always says "hi!"  And always uses their name.  My Father In Law is staying with us for awhile and every time he walks into a room he waves and smiles and says "hi Tito."  And not just in a normal voice he yells it like you are in the next room.  He is very much a loud talker and has no idea how to whisper yet.  He wakes up from a nap and I come into get him and he smiles and waves and yells "hi mommy!"  Probably 12 times a day I get a "hi Mommy!"  He is still a smarty pants and his love for Lion King has now turned into a love for Lion King 1 1/2.  He calls it Lion King one half.  He loves cheese puffs and calls them cheenos and loves his ipad and calls it hipad.  He loves to tattle on Aaden and likes to be left alone and not bothered while he is doing something he enjoys.  He is getting MUCH better with Hudson and his mean streak has stopped.  He knows what he likes to eat and isn't keen on trying new stuff and he HATES his food to touch each other.  He calls his Brothers Day-yea and Husson and the dog Phoenix is now called Guinea by ALL of us.  He wants very little to do with potty training and every time his diaper is wet he says it's poop, but while changing he will say "no just peeps Mommy."

Hudson oh Hudson my boy is growing fast, he is such a dream to have in our lives, but is quickly learning that he likes attention too.  He loves to watch his Brothers from his highchair and loves when they try to play with him.  He is such a beauty and makes me yearn for time to stand still.  He's almost always a good sleeper, but recently he has been staying in the living room while my Father In Law is here and that has caused a few restless nights, but all in all he is such a good boy and I love his little teeth and laugh.  He has recently learned to dance, but I have yet to catch it on video.  His new noises and blowing bubbles he is such a joy!

We are officially in escrow and will be moving at the end of May to the FROG HOUSE!  While on a visit to the house my good friend Heather found a frog in the yard so to them it's the frog house and VERY exciting to have stairs to play on.

Always Buddies

 Easter 2010

Easter 2012

Happy Easter

 Hudson loves teething crackers

 Painting eggs

 Check out those hands

Finally a picture of Mommy and her boys

Ours

Changes

It's been awhile, I got wrapped up in my new blog which to much surprise has made me $16 AND I have been sent coupons, samples, and free food.  Even more exciting is that it helps to keep me motivated and I am down 21 pounds.

In BIG news we have put an offer in on a house.  It is honestly the home of our dreams, it's everything we have ever wanted.  We went into this with a list of about 5 silly things each and knew that most likely we would have to cave on one or two things, but no.  No caving, it's on a court has four bedrooms, walk in pantry and closet.  Upstairs laundry room, GIANT lot, room to have the kiddos Birthday parties at our house with a jumpy house, space to park our trailer, the perfect floor plan, lots of space for our growing family, and DHs fav a real wood fireplace.  The biggest kicker... the payment is actually lower than our rent.  The only down fall is that it is 9 miles away from our current home.  In some ways that is no big deal, but in other ways it's a little scary.  We are still in the waiting game, but pretty close to closing the deal.  We are trying not to get too excited yet because so much can happen.

In Hudson news he had his 6 month shots, got a tooth, and is loving rice crackers, and lots of foods in his mesh nets.  It's fun to have all three boys sitting together at breakfast eating the same fruits.  I made mango baby food for him and he is loving that.

Aaden has made so much progress in his tantrums and following the rules.  The downfall is that just when Aaden gets better Noah gets worse.  I can now see it's Noah's turn to push the limits and the worst part is it is usually at poor Hudson's expense.  He is always touching him and not in nice ways, he climbs on his high chair and takes things away from him.  If he is playing on the floor Noah will lay on top of him.  If he is in his jumper Noah will swing him or climb on it.  If Hudson makes a squeal Noah will yell "Hudson stop it!"  Very rarely is he nice to him, he seems to want to torment him and I am quite sure it's to get my attention because obviously it does.  On the plus side Aaden is the complete opposite with Hudson he is so gentle and caring and always worried about him.  All I can hope is that this is just a phase and it WILL get better.  For now I am just trying to give Noah more attention when he is doing the right things and just removing him from the situation when he is doing bad things.

Our weather has been awful lately so we have been busy doing lots of crafts.  Painting, dying and playing with noodle, play doh, coloring, anything to keep us busy.

Now for some show and tell...